1. fejezet

-Streaks, flashes and people passing all blurred together in one big noise. Then I saw black and suddenly it was quiet.-

I woke up in a hospital beaten and bruised with no idea of who I was. They told me my name but it didn't seem to fit. I felt out of place and had no idea what to make of the strangers in the room. I felt like a wave that has lost the ocean, alone and lost. Who are they? Am I supposed to know them? Who's the lady in black who's been crying in the corner? So many questions, none of which I could answer. I adjusted on the cold, unfamiliar bed ignoring the hand in mine that belonged to the only person who made me feel safe in the room and let sleep claim me.

I stepped on the floors of the tram drinking my coffee with a half smile, it made me feel warm inside during the cold winter. I looked around searching for a handle to hold onto; 'that one by the door? nope. That bar?  nope. YES!' I see an empty handhold. 'damn it there's a little old woman standing under it, surely Ii can't push her out of my way just to hold on.. ah..I 'll  just try not to fall then.'

With my mood a little disheartened now I try to listen to the girl next to me talking. But something wrong, I keep glancing  towards the streets through the window I have a bad feeling in my gut. Shaking my head as if to banish my previous thoughts and force myself to concentrate on the girl and the tall guy talking or just starring? They both look at me expectantly feeling confused and checking behind me to make sure that they really ARE looking at ME. Shit, they are...  "sorry, you were saying?" the boy opened his mouth to answer but the vehicle's sudden halt cut him short.

Scared chocolate brown eyes locking into mine in panic is the last thing I see.

I shot up on the bed, panting heavily, hearing my heart in my ears. -It's so loud- I clenched my fists and shut my eyes tight -Make it stop- screams echoed through the room -please, please- it chanted almost like a prayer looking for god. I bowed my head and as the wails became muffled I realized that it was me who was making the noise. I willed myself to stop, trying to keep my mind on the warm hand at the back of my neck making soothing  circles.

I looked at person who was nearest to me, was it their hand on my neck? I didn't know. But for the second time in a row, I saw brown before everything disappeared.

I was anxiously  waiting for underground to stop, I looked at the clock on my phone 'Damn it! I'm so going to be late!' When it was finally standing still I quickly jumped on, not paying mind to the crowd whatsoever, securing myself next to the door. It felt like the longest time between the two stations when in reality all it took was like a minute, a very fucking slow minute. When it was time for me to get off I hopped off as fast I could and sprinted towards the exit.

I didn't notice brown eyes staring at me intently.